The book series delves into my personal quest for finding my identity, and piecing my soul back together again. Ever since I could remember, my soul always felt split, with a feeling of dissociation and depersonalisation. After I carried out my shadow work, I realised that my traumatic experiences did not start with my mother and I.  My struggles echoed ancestral patterns, leading me to uncover where the original source started of these intertwined fates, a repeated legacy handed down through recurring narcissistic karmic traumas. There are a total of 10 books in this series, all memoirs, not fictional.

Mother always wanted me to live my life the way she wanted,  only her way mattered. After she died, I carried out profound shadow work and discovered that  throughout my whole life I was going around in a repeated karmic loop of cutting ties and being drawn back in again.  Was this reoccurring loop connected to the negative cycles, that were beyond my control, no matter what I did, I always got caught up in them.  A pattern began to emerge in my mind of unfulfilled circumstances, with a hidden narcissistic element. Where did this originate from? My grandmother never knew her true lineage, and when she died her soul got stuck in the house I grew up in.  As I grew older, mother's handed down stories evolved into my responsibility.  Were the emotional energies I picked up on an old country boreen, my ancestors?  Where did the recurring vision, dream, and narcissistic nightmare with an overlap of a protective semi- permeable translucent guardian figure fit in? 

Why were all of these unusual circumstances interconnected to me? Would they ultimately help me find my identity, heal their traumas, and piece my soul back together?